You don’t really think about motherhood concretely until you are pregnant. You think about it abstractly, but it’s possible to grasp the concept completely until it really is happening to you.
I always knew I would be a mother. I was always that person who devoured the words of every mother I met. I wanted to know their opinion on everything to do with parenting. I loved children, too, but it was motherhood as an identity that I was most drawn to. I was excited and intrigued about it.
It’s funny to think that now I am a mother. Even if I do miscarry, I will never be the same again.